Sunday, February 10, 2008

turn around and walk away...pretending I don't love you

This is so hard. A thousand times a day my hand goes to my phone to see if he has called. A thousand times I bring his number up in my phone forcing myself not to hit send, just staring at his number. A thousand times I check my email to see if there is anything from him.

I know this is the right thing to do. It is right for me. He hasn't gotten in touch with me. I feel like I am always the one to smooth things over and fix what's wrong. I need to be strong. If I matter to him, he would have made some attempt to get in touch with me. If he wanted this, he would have given me a sign. Running after him would only make me disappointed in myself.

This is so hard. But I miss him so much.

1 comment:

P in VT said...

you, can do it. it's hard and I recently CAVED (BIG TIME) but really, you can do it.